instant messenger patient @datn@spanner.works

one month and change after the solstice, and well into the lockdown, i see myself and everyone i know really starting to crack

miss you Smarf

i miss Smarf from Too Many Cooks

feels weird not to have 45 on the brain. he was taking up a lot of real estate against my will. he got elected at the end of the year my wife left, during which had a giant nightmare dealing with separating our shared life and possessions. i also got a dream job with the federal government which i ended up leaving.

so lots of trauma coming to an end, but so much of my life got rebuilt during that trauma that i am kind of at a loss now

i feel bad about feeling like i'm about to pass a kidneystone at noon EST tomorrow

this configuration is unacceptable and i reject it

the previous 6am

you guys don't need me I'm gonna sit this one out

i cannot keep a thought in my head for more than ten seconds today

i am so unbelievably angry and sad this morning

i am having the kind of Monday morning where i just... STARE

and it seemed to me Montana was a leg. now i get it

am Schäfersee -- "Shepherd Lake" in northern Berlin

I'm awake and it's dark what do I do to make the sun rise sooner

i love it here

i have been watching birdsite and listening to news for over six hours except when i had a panic attack and had to go grocery shopping

can't sleep fascists will eat me

cautionary tale: sending texts with gloves